There weren’t many other INFP’s in the group at uni and the others were even more introverted than me so we didn’t discuss it. (INFP’s are a minority group in the general population – 3-4%). Everyone else in the group was more extroverted and/or more of a thinking, analytical type so they dominated the discussion. Being an INFP seemed to me then to be something of a failure. I pushed the findings of the test aside and attempted to be more like the dominant group.
It is only now that I come back to the test results and re-assess them. I found the commentary on INFP’s on http://www.humanmetrics.com/ to be deeply accurate. One sentence that jumped out at me on first reading was – ‘As INTPs tend to have a sense of failed competence, INFPs struggle with the issue of their own ethical perfection.’ – well that explains what happened the first time I took the test.
I then read: ‘INFPs can even masquerade in their ESTJ (Extroverted, Sensing, Thinking, Judging) business suit, but not without expending considerable energy.’ Aaha – that explains many of the problems I’ve been having these past few years. The gap between how I instinctively want to function and how I think I should function in order to be employed and successful in the world widened so much I succumbed to illness –
Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.
Now that I have largely recovered I find the gap has become an abyss I can no longer bridge.
It is time to reclaim my identity as an INFP.
‘natural inclination toward absent- mindedness and other-worldliness’
‘INFPs never seem to lose their sense of wonder. One might say they see life through rose-colored glasses. It’s as though they live at the edge of a looking-glass world where mundane objects come to life, where flora and fauna take on near-human qualities.’
INFPs direct their energy inward. They are energized by spending time alone. They are private and internally aware. INFPs are independent and keep to themselves most of the time. INFPs are Intuitive. They are imaginative, idealistic and creative people. They generate endless possibilities and ideas. Their thought process is profound and abstract. INFPs live in the future. (INFP personality type) .
INFPs can easily speak in metaphors and parables, and they also have an amazing gift of creating and interpreting symbols – for this reason, INFPs often find it natural to write and enjoy poetry…Generally speaking, people with this personality type are extremely creative, innovative and goal-oriented – they can be great advocates for causes they truly believe in. http://www.16personalities.com/INFP-personality
INFPs may also often retreat into their “hermit” state (this personality type can easily switch between the two states), withdrawing from the world and getting lost in their deep thoughts.
From http://www.infpblog.com/infp/infp-description/ An INFP lives in a constant state of Becoming. We exist in flux between who we are at this moment and our vision of our Ideal Self